Trees Day #3

March 27,2012

Nothing. Just watered and lots of sunlight (:

Tree day #2

March 26, 2012
Put them in soil.(:
Now we water them and give them sunlight and Wait

Engaged(:

Im engaged!!
(: yay!
3.26.2012

Trees(:

Today we started our "tree" adventure, for the Lorax(:
We soak them in water for 24 hours

One week missing.

My friend recently just lost a week of her memory. I don't know how I'd react if I lost a week of my memory. Or a day. I'd probably pick a few nights I had 0 memoryy of. But, i mean, I don't wanna lose a big chunk . And a week is not a lot, but think if your mind has no.memory of the week. And you woke up telling people the date is the 2nd and its really the 9th... id be lost. :(

My brother.

So my brother and I are, 2 years. 2 months. 2 weeks. And 2 days. Apart. Cool, huh? Well he turns the big FIFTEEN this weekend. (The 11th) and ahh! I mean, yeahh we are both grown up. But hes like a million feet tall. And he's just so adorablee. Haha. My brother is so goofy. But still, hes so grown up. Brings a tear to.my eye.

I LOVE YOU, LITTLE MAN<3

Times change.

Kayden Tracen .

Back than, I was a girl with way to many problems.

A girl who was challenged everyday of bullying & death threats from people she didn't even know.

Back than I was dealing with drugs.|IT;s an everyday struggle.

Back than I was dealing and challenged with an eating disorder.|Now, I'm still challenged with Anorexia.

Back than FAMILY mean't the same thing as I HATE YOU. | Now, certain family brings me down.

I hated everyone in the world | now I only hate a few.

Than, I was dealing with getting over being raped, heart broken, and just losing friends, and moving to another place.

Times Change | So Do I <3

I'm the same person, just a little smarter and little better at what I do.

Ashlee Shayne Curtis <3'

Oh, Ashlee. We've been friends for a short while. But we've become best friends. You're an awesome person, and we have told each other EVERYTHING. You are truly a special person to me. I've been talking to your sister, non stop since 2:00 pm on March 7, 2012. She's been giving me multiple updates, and is telling me everything she finds out. We are waiting on your mommy to decide if she'd like to have visitors, to go up there, and see if you will wake up. I love you, I'm freaking out because, I don't want to lose you.

This is my facebook status:

"Ashlee, when you wake up. I want you to know I love you. You're an awesome person. I'm waiting for you to come to so I can see that smile, and hear that laugh. So I can see my little bull. <|3 Ashley, I've been up your sisters butt, texting her getting all information. Your mommy might let me come up to talk to you too see if you will wake, I hope so. I really do. Deklans gonna miss his Auntie 'Chocolate Thunder'. Please Ashlee. Please! I can't lose you, I love you too much. I can't and won't let you go. Please wake up.
Love . DC,Kayden,&Cliff"
@ 8:30am

You're sister told me this morning, they said you were in a Coma. That scares me. I want you to wake up, and say hello to the world again. I need that right now. I don't want to lose you, your an amazing person. And one day ,you will do amazing things.

It's 9:40, and I don't want to stop writing but , I have to because I have to go get ready for DC's 2 month shots >___< Once, I get word I can come up there, Cliff is taking me. 

I love you. <3

Ashlee and her little sister.
Haha, Ashlee is on the right.

 ""remember who you are" I have issues with accepting myself and loving myself for who I am and for the way I am. So this tattoo is my way to overcome these obstacles."
February 8, 2012

Her "anime" hair. <3

The first time we met.
We ended up being @ the  mall at the same time <3

""remember who you are" I have issues with accepting myself and loving myself for who I am and for the way I am. So this tattoo is my way to overcome these obstacles."
February 8, 2012
(Same as before) 

In her new apartment<3

First time meeting her<3

Natural Beauty.

We saw these gauges when we were at the mall together, and she ended up getting them <3

First time meeting Deklan! <3
She was so excited!<3

I love you, Ashlee! <3

KONY2012

So, I am now obbsessed with this. I really am
vimeo.com/37119711
Ah, gives me goosebumps.

Invisible Children, Inc.

So, I read this story, I was on Facebook, and 45 friends shared this link. The link is a video. A video that has personally changed my life. A 30 minute video made me realize how amazing I have it, compared to others. Please, take the time, and watch this.
http://vimeo.com/37119711
30 minutes out of  your day, to watch this video that will change your life.

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Facebook : http://www.facebook.com/invisiblechildren

About

Invisible Children uses film, creativity and social action to end the use of child soldiers in Joseph Kony's rebel war and restore LRA-affected communities in Central Africa to peace and prosperity.

Mission

Invisible Children uses film, creativity and social action to end the use of child soldiers in Joseph Kony's rebel war and restore LRA-affected communities in Central Africa to peace and prosperity.

Company Overview

We believe Invisible Children is not just a nonprofit, but a group of people choosing to live differently. We use the power of media to inspire young people to help end the longest running war in Africa. We make documentaries, tour them around the world, and lobby our nation's leaders to make ending this war a priority.

Description

In the spring of 2003, three young filmmakers traveled to Africa in search of a story. What started out as a filmmaking adventure transformed into much more when these boys from Southern California discovered a tragedy that disgusted and inspired them, a tragedy where children are both the weapons and the victims.

After returning to the States, they created the documentary "Invisible Children: Rough Cut," a film that exposes the tragic realities of northern Uganda.s night commuters and child soldiers.

The film was originally shown to friends and family, but has now been seen by millions of people. The overwhelming response has been, "How can I help?" To answer this question, the non-profit Invisible Children, Inc. was created, giving compassionate individuals an effective way to respond to the situation.

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Twitter :

@Invisible

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HOW IT IMPACTED ME! 

It touched my heart. It made me cry. I plan on buying the "action pack" soon, so I can take action. I wish one day in the world, their will be peace. 

Stupid schools.

Well, the stupid schooling people called me. I hate them! Why would you tell me I can become a photojournalists for free, in college. When it turns out they misread everything and I'm supposed to be 18, what the hell? Really? This is retarded, I'm  beyond mad. I should learn not to get excited for anything until it happens.

Venting. Sorry.

VentVentVent.

 Venting. Sorry. <|3

So, I've been adviced to give my son cereal since he was 2 weeks old. And I'm on this mommy group on Facebook. And all of them bashed me on it, I have no idea why. I wasn't technically asking an opinion.I was happy cause my son ate off a spoon for the first time. He is 2 months old. So we've been giving him the cereal for awhile now, and I have no idea why all these people are telling me I'm clueless and shit. Like seriously? I wasn't adviced by his doctor to give him cereal, the hospital told us to start him on cereal. Like, seriously? And if you have a child, you know it's impossible to give them cereal with a bottle, I really don't care what other mothers have to say. I just don't like the critism. And I don't like how people are telling me that I'm doing wrong because I'm giving my child Cereal, A doctor told me too. So, it's whatever.

But some people, need to back off. I simply asked a question when to give them first foods. I didn't give my son first foods, I was just wondering. And all these people jumped down my back. Like back off. >.<

And, for one , I'm the kind of person who will go with what I want and what's best for my son. I don't listen to his doctor. If I have a question I call Texas Children's Hospital. 

It's okay though. Cause' they are more up to date than the doctor is. And the doctor is from India. So, I find her dumb. She told me that Deklan can't have nightmares. Lies. >.< I hear him screaming in his sleep.

Anyway, I give my son Juice *More water than juice* and I give him cereal . 

The juice, he has to take, because that's the only way he will take ALL of his medicines.

He has to take one up until he is about 1 year old. Because he had surgery at 3 weeks old.

So the only way to make sure he gets all of it is juice or sugar water (Notes from the hospital. Even on the release form) And cereal, because when we went to our second trip to the hospital. He stopped eating and would only eat once or twice a day, so they told us cereal twice a day, and just to continue from there on out. (he was 2 weeks old.) So we give it to him at night and the morning. At first we only did nights, to build it up, and than started mornings, because he was going through 3 cans a week.

Venting. Sorry.

Thoughts.

So, here lately, I've been feeling a little different in my head. I think my anorexia is coming back. :(  I was diagnosed with anorexia when I was like 12 or something, and it was brought on by my sperm donor telling me that I was fat and wasn't pretty, and all the people school bullied me. So they weren't helping me.
But when I found out I was pregnant with my son, I made myself eat, and keep it down , and my body wasn't used to that.So it just stored the food as fat, instead of it digesting . And so I went from 125 to 177 . 
And my postpartum  wait was 157. And now that my incision is completely healed from the c-section. 
I plan on doing the natural way and healthy way to lose weight. With vitamins, excercise and lovely eating healthy <3


Wish me luuck (: